There are so much going on: Jobs, Meditation, Relationship, Awareness.
Letely I fell overwelmed with the amount of tasks and the short time I have. I've been reading The Happiness Project from Grethen Rubin, and its helping me to get motivated with my tasks as well as organized (emails, spanish classes, to do lists, bills, etc). As she says, "the weeks are long, but the years are short"
And they are! I’m 32 already, I spent my 20s relapsed and going with the flow, now im here trying to catch up.
After a great meditation retreat, I started being more opened. I had the same retreat type of retreat 4 times already, and it helped me quite a bit, but now I fell opened. I want to share my life and be open to received as much as possible. I want to get out of my confort zone at work. I want to read more and know more.
While I am here trying to figure out the purpose of my life, a lot of things are going on around me.
My job is becaming a little more unsatistify than I expeceted after working there for a little less than two years. Nothing bad, but enough for me to think about it. Two years are so short to start felling like that... I guess. It's time to change that situation and move things around.
I’ve been working out quite a lot and soon I will be starting training for ALC for next year. I already started saving money for a new bike, and now I need to start thinking about getting all the donation needed to be accepted. Keith is helping me to get motivated about all this. He done this for quite a few years already and I hope we can do it together next year.
I'm in a relationship for almost two years now, and it mostly long distance. I think my fear of sharing my life attacts this kind of relationships. Now I miss him and I wonder if we will get back together soon/someday. I want to face a normal close relationship. We talk on the phone, Skype, pretty much everyday, but I'm busy with my to-do lists and he is busy with school.
I am also living in a good environment. Big house, good neighborhood, and with two nice and sexy roomates. Its the first time that I am living with gays. I feel like i am in a unintentional and unnoticed competition, which helps me keep my attention in my health, my habits, and my sex.
So I'm back trying to write and read everyday to organize my thoughs, improve my memory, and my english!
I started doing Osho active meditations again after over 10 years of not ding it. Actually I just started and I want to do them twice a week… but where is the fucking time!?
What I want:
- yoga 2x week - 3 hours
- spanish 2x a week - 3 hours
- meditation 30min a day - 3.5 hours
- reading 30min every night - 3.5 hours
- one hour a day for errants/to do lists - 7 hours
- body combat every friday
- gym every morning
how to handle?
Leo.
